Its been a long day since the last update which is abt 2 years ago. 2015 was the most challenging years after 2014 incident. Everything changed slowly including myself. I don't know how, why and who turn me like this but one thing that i know that there's someone who i could die for. I can't afford to lose that person (should i call that person as "X"?) X always there for me when i have something that i couldn't handle. We started to get close when everyone is leaving. I admit i use to abandon you before but not now. I would do anything in order to make you happy. I know my fault left you without anywords even only for a few days. I know i never show how i feel but i really care abt you. When people talk bad abt you i get mad so easily. Its bcs people never listen from your side. People blame you and everytime they blame you i will be the one who listen to it. They don't tell you but they tell me. Why they have to blame you even for someone else mistake? Everyone make mistake but why they make like you are the only one who make mistake. I can't accept it until one moment i want to run away bcs i can't listen to them anymore. I hate it so much. 
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