Its been a long day since the last update which is abt 2 years ago. 2015 was the most challenging years after 2014 incident. Everything changed slowly including myself. I don't know how, why and who turn me like this but one thing that i know that there's someone who i could die for. I can't afford to lose that person (should i call that person as "X"?) X always there for me when i have something that i couldn't handle. We started to get close when everyone is leaving. I admit i use to abandon you before but not now. I would do anything in order to make you happy. I know my fault left you without anywords even only for a few days. I know i never show how i feel but i really care abt you. When people talk bad abt you i get mad so easily. Its bcs people never listen from your side. People blame you and everytime they blame you i will be the one who listen to it. They don't tell you but they tell me. Why they have to blame you even for someone else mistake? Everyone make mistake but why they make like you are the only one who make mistake. I can't accept it until one moment i want to run away bcs i can't listen to them anymore. I hate it so much. 

     So hari ni all 99's batch ambik result pt3 and dengar cerita just 84 persons dapat straights A. Balik rumah scroll twitter tengok macam macam tweet ada and ya most of all semua menyakitkan hati. Yang dapat straights A ofc la nak update kan. Yang seniors from "U" and other school sibuk complain pt3 je "pun". Did you guys know how it feel to be the "lab rats" of our goverment? No you don't. Form 5 dapat soalan KBAT pun kecoh satu dunia ni kitorang mangsa "lab rats" yang mendapat result yang "cemerlang" nak lepas geram la juga. Tau tak apa perasaan bila tengok muka parents korang bila tengok result teruk? Kalau tau fikir kalau tak tau try bayangkan. 

    After a few months tak update cause busy with exam so ya now is the right time!

    Last night, aku mimpi about someone yang aku dah lama tak tegur. Before this we are friend but something happen and we become a stranger again! Dalam mimpi tu we met dekat somewhere yang aku sendiri tak sure kat mana. At first we just ignore each other like tak pernah kenal pun then aku duduk belakang dia. I just keep staring at her and suddenly aku hold tangan dia. Dia pusing pandang aku dengan muka confuse dia and both of us senyap. Then aku start the conversation, aku cakap yang aku nak minta maaf ((tak sure pasal apa but benda tu macam takde kaitan dengan apa yang jadi in real life)) and aku terangkan dekat dia macam macam. But benda yang paling pelik time tengah explain tu suddenly both of us menangis ((pelik bagi aku cause im not the type of person yang senang menangis bak kata kawan kawan aku hati batu)).

    After that kitorang kawan balik and friendship kitorang lain. Aku dengan dia rapat gila gila sampai aku pun tak tau la macam mana nak cakap. Kitorang selalu call, ws (whatsapp), skype and hangout sama sama. Even pergi holiday sama sama ((kalau tak silap pergi pd)). Semua benda yang dalam mimpi tu aku tak pernah expect in real life cause jauh gila beza! Sehari aku asyik ingat dekat mimpi tu. Harap mimpi tu satu petunjuk yang baik and bukan nightmare.









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